So much better!!

Tonight was a lot of fun! We celebrated my Grandmas 80th birthday at my parents house with all my aunts and uncles and cousins!! For those of you who know the Love Family--- that is a lot of people!!! Anyway, it is so much fun to get together with them--- it is just an awesome family and I am VERY lucky to be a part of it. Anyway, I was talking to some cousins, and they had read my last post and were asking how things were going, and I just told them that seriously, the day after I wrote that post, my 2 older girls were vcry nice and let me sleep in. And, getting that extra sleep really made the most massive difference and I feel so much better!! Ever since that day, life has become manageable! It is amazing what sleep can do for you!!!

I also haven't said much about it, because I haven't wanted people to feel bad or sorry for me, but I experienced something following delivery that has made me thankful! I wrote about how frustrated I was that I wasn't having the baby yet, and how my water broke and that was how I went into labor. Well, throughout the whole process, I didn't really experience contractions--- which was odd because with the other 2 I had massive contractions. Anyway, the delivery was a little difficult because she was posterior, but it all went well and we got her here! But afterwards, the nurses kept coming in and checking on me and acted like something wasn't right. I was bleeding a lot more that I should be, and started passing clots. They told me it was nothing to worry about. Then they started me on fluids and petocin to have contractions AFTER I had delivered. I had 4 bags of it following the birth to help with the bleeding. Well, it went all day and all night. I was in a lot of pain, and no one was telling me what was going on. Finally, a nurse came in to talk to me and told me that my platelets were low when I went in to deliver and they kept dropping, meaning my blood was not clotting. That is why they had to give me the medicines to contract. Well, finally it was under control and they kept me on the meds. Finally, that night, my doctor came in to talk to me and she explained the situation thoroughly. She told me they didn't know what had caused the problem, because my blood pressure was normal. But I was losing too much blood. Fortunately the meds had worked and I was finally at a normal loss. She then went on to say that in the olden days before medication this was the number one reason that they lost women in child birth. Can you imagine? I am so thankful that I live in a day when there are medications available and that I was taken care of. And after that-- with the exception of one more trip to the ER and more meds--- I have been fine. I have had AMAZING ward members take their time to come help me clean my house and cook meals. After all of that, my levels are completely normal, my iron is normal, and everything is fine. I feel great. There may be some people that may not have the same beliefs as me that read this, but I am very thankful that everything has worked out and I am doing well. I strongly feel that a lot of it had to do with Priesthood blessings, and I am thankful for a husband, dad, and father-in-law that were able to perform them for me. I know I am truly blessed!!!

Life

People have always commented about how difficult it is to have their 3rd child. When I was pregnant, I was thinking-- "how hard could it really be?" Well, now I know. It has been very overwhelming. I think it hasn't helped that I had some after-birth problems, and can't do a whole lot right now. Plus you just feel blah those first few weeks- which I haven't gotten past yet. I just want to feel semi-normal again. I have an awesome baby. She just sleeps all the time, which helps out a lot. It isn't the baby that is the hard part. It is the other two kids and keeping up with them and their messes and which literally prohibit me from getting a good amount of sleep, because although the baby sleeps-- I have to be awake when the other two are and baby still wakes up to eat every 3 hours. So that is the thing I want the most--- which isn't likely, is to feel well rested!! Life just has to continue on whether you have a baby or not. Here is my question to those of you with kids-- it doesn't matter if its 2, 3, 4 or 6. When does life start feeling semi-normal again???

More pictures!!

Drum Roll Please..........

Finally!!! We have a cute baby girl..... she really is!! She looks just like both of her sisters. Anyway, at 3:35 AM, I rolled over to get a more comfortable position to sleep and all of the sudden there was a gush of fluid... my water had broke. So we went straight to the hospital, and I delivered Kenzie at 7:03 AM. She was 8 lbs 12 oz, 19 inches! She is very healthy and strong. Here are some of the pictures. I will try to post better ones later on!!

Due Date

Today is officially my due date for baby #3. Do you think I am doing anything exciting today...... like being in the hospital delivering a baby?? NOPE!!! So many people have asked me if I was going to induce, and the answer is no. I just feel like it isn't right for me. I don't know why, but I can't bring myself to even consider induction. I went a day over with Abbie. We had scheduled the induction for the day after my due date, and I went into labor and we didn't really have to induce. For some people induction is the right choice and it is all a personal choice, but I feel strongly this time that I am not supposed to. There has got to be a reason for that. Besides, I have come this far....... why induce now? LOL. I talked to my sister, Stacey, this morning.... it was good for me. We just joked around and came up with theories as to why I haven't had this baby yet! It is so hard waiting for the baby to come, and really I am doing okay........ I am just really anxious!! You all know that feeling??? Anyway........ maybe this week I will have this baby. Until then, I just wanted to give an update saying......... nothing has happened.

Update!

Still no baby. I would love to do a post with a bunch of pictures saying we have had her, but hasn't happened yet. I could say I am completely miserable and uncomfortable..... but I am not. I can stand to be pregnant longer, after all, I did go a day over with Abbie and she was 9 lbs 5 oz. I don't think I am to that point yet with Kenzie. I am doing fine being pregnant. But the fact of the matter is...... I am frustrated. I want to be able to meet my baby girl, see what she looks like, and hold her. I also want recovery time....... we have so much stuff coming up! On Sunday, will be Jons parents farewell. Since we are living upstairs now and living in the house while they are on their mission, that means the luncheon afterwards will be in the house, hopefully mostly outside. I am a little stressed about it, because I could either be barely home from the hospital, or still in the hospital, or knowing my luck........ still pregnant. I just want to be able to make sure things are nice and cleaned up for them. Also the 4th is coming up. I love the 4th of July! I love all the festivities that go along with it, I love going to the parades, and the barbeques, and fireworks....... the works! But it is going to be very difficult to enjoy it with a week and a half, possibly week old baby! Plus, I know I am not going to be fully recovered or adjusted by then! And my sister is coming that same weekend!!! I am so excited for her and her family to be here, I just want to feel good when they get here so I can spend some time with them and not be ornery or super tired!! Anyway, those are just some of my concerns with her not being here yet. Like I said, I am not miserable or completely uncomfortable with pregnancy. I just want my little girl here!!!!