Now my prior rant seems ridiculous, because I did it! I made it through the semester! I have gone to school for years with kids, yet suddenly this semester became unbearable. I didn't think I could go on another day, but yet something kept pulling me through. I made it through one day at a time, and today, I officially completed the semester. I don't know why education is so important to me, but it is a journey I vowed to complete. I am down to three semesters left, but all good things must come to an end. Because of the stress I experienced this semester in trying to go to school and dropping the kids off at Webers day care before making it to class, Jon and I decided it would be best if I focused on being a wife and mother for now. We decided that is priority. My education can wait.
Our house seriously has been completely cluttered and a disaster since September! I have just kind of put it aside and let my kids have at it. I have always been, I wouldn't say neat freak because I am not completely anal about having things spotless, but I cannot function through life if the house is not clean. So it is time to fulfill my true calling in life, which is being a fantastic mother for my girls and the baby on the way. I do believe education is important, but I also believe there is a time and place for everything and right now is not the right time!
I cannot believe the amount of stress I faced from going to school. It was incredible. The funny thing is, through all the stress of the semester, I feel kind of disappointed tonight, that it is over and I didn't complete it yet. I was talking to Jon about how it's odd because ever since I was 16 I have worked or gone to school or both, with exception to a few semesters here and there. I don't know what I am supposed to do with my life? He said "it's time for you to be a mom. That is what you are supposed to do, and that is something great!" I know my kids are a handful, but I still want to feel like I am fulfilling and accomplishing something great in my life. Anyway, I know that I will not be able to give up blogging, it is going to become the thing that keeps me going!
7 comments:
Amen amen and amen Holly! I've found that going to work and/or school naturally makes you feel accomplished, and it's more of a challenge at home to achieve that feeling at the end of the day. But it's a fun challenge to develop your own routine and develop or find talents and abilities you didn't know you had. Change of subject: tonight I was at a ward party and a group of women sang Were You There. I thought, who did I sing this with in high school?...Holly! And that memory made me remember the super cheesy skit we did that involved me being upset that my name wasn't in a Christmas song and yours was. P.S. I found your blog through Megan's. Congratulations on your baby on the way!!
I didn't know you were expecting?? Congrats! Good job finishing up, there will be time in the future to continue. You are a great mom, everyone gets stressed.. at least i do so i hope everyone does :) Staying home is way harder than working, i look forward to work so i get a break! But the rewards are far better as well :)
I am not sure how you have gone this far with school, I can't imagine finishing with two young children and now one on the way, good job you should be way proud of yourself. I think it's great you are taking a break for awhile, esepcially with a baby on the way, you need some rest and downtime to get ready for the little one.
After such a stressful semester you can use some more time for yourself and your family. It isn't always easy being home all the time but being a mom is great!
Holly, I admire you for you determination.
I keep saying that someday I'll go back to school, but I keep putting it off.
You are an amazing Mom, whether you stay home full time or not.
Great post! I am very happy for you guys but very sad for me (about the boy). What am I supposed to tease Jon about now? I am sure I'll come up with something. By the way Mitchell showed me an impersonation of Kaylee last night that would make you pee your pants.
Good Job Holly! I can hardly manage school now and I only have to worry about myself. Your backround is really cute by the way! I really love it! Anyway I guess that's all I have to say.
Post a Comment